We all need HELP

What do you do in a world where the Devil is in the air & the world is consumed with lies & everyone is breathing in fairytales?

I cannot have true, human joy knowing that others are in pain. I cannot experience human happiness when the world around me is full of darkness. Having faith does not mean losing compassion, but quite the opposite. I am joyous spiritually because I have the secret. I know our Father. I do not cry for the world, but for the lost souls in it. I walk with light & love trying to make a difference. No one is paying attention, but I continue still. I will continue until I am no more. I know the Highway. It is still being built up. I walk around grasping constantly for the state of spiritual bliss, yet my flesh is in the world and it is an ugly one. And I AM HERE. I am stuck on this earth that God created, and man has destroyed. I cannot fake delusion, pretending what is is actually what is not. I can pray. I can pray really hard. But I SEE. I HEAR. There will not be a righteous one left. There will be no one to stand in the gap between what is truth and what is deceit. It is already happening and it is apparent. 

I shall not fear, but I do anyway. It’s hard to disguise emotion. I fear for the children that are learning all the deceit. Not only learning it, but being completely programmed by it. They are the future of the world should there be a future. I fear for my husband and the things he may encounter when I am not around. I fear for every single being that is out there, every breath of precious life that is being brought forth into a world that chooses lies over truth, and then instills it into all ears and all eyes.  I fear because the world is teaming with injustice and raising upright unrighteousness. The Lord IS my shepherd. I know that I shall not fear. Spiritually, I do not fear. I do not fear what man will do to me as a human being, I fear for what man is doing to everyone else. I fear for the people who do not know how to overcome, but rather give in. It is easier for them to be a part rather than apart. 

I am human. I am spirit, too. The flesh is weak, but the spirit is so willing. Meaning, my human emotions are in the human realm and in reality they are real. I feel them. My spirit fights to overcome my human emotions and stay connected to God, but I cannot stand to leave everyone else behind, stuck in their human shells with no spiritual way to disconnect and feel spiritual truth. I would love to change the world, but I do not know how, however; I refuse to let the world change me. I am minuscule. But I dream big. I pray big. I will continue to walk in God’s light and imminate the truth to whoever may see. But know  I am human, too. As humans we ARE complex. Do not let complexity hide simple truth. Dig, dig, dig for it. Stand up for the truth. Teach your children what is right, not what is socially acceptable. Teach your children God. Teach your children love. A world without either is a world without both, and that world is manifesting daily.

An Amish Visit

My husband and I visited the Amish one day. We had no idea how to get to them nor what our intentions were upon meeting them. Neither of us had even spoken about the Amish before. We both buckled-up and drove 2 hours away from home letting God guide us. Feeling compelled to go, but having no sense of direction, my husband kept asking me along the way how and where and why we were going. I did not know the answers, and he continued to drive. We let a horse and buggy in front of us upon reaching a small town that we heard some Amish lived in. I told my husband to follow the buggy, which he did, and we stopped at the horse watering hole that it had stopped at. The young man seemed baffled to be hearing us speak (probably a little to do with our bewilderment about why we were there). We told him we felt compelled to speak with someone from his community. We felt like they would listen, like the Amish would talk about God and Christ like no one else we could find.

The young man did not recognize much of our english, but he told us about a road to look for so that we would be able to hopefully find someone to talk to. We drove around and stopped a couple of times at different Amish houses before being directed to the elder. The elder man greeted us curiously once we knocked on his door. He asked why the Amish man that we spoke to down the street couldn’t help us. We told him that he directed us his way, and the elder readily let us in his home. He and his wife were very curious about us just as we were about them. We spoke about our life and the Lord for over 6 hours. We laughed and cried together. It was so serene and peaceful. It was so welcoming. They spoke about their hardships, about a son who left their community. We spoke about our way of living. How we are trying desperately to disconnect from worldly things.

They had a small ‘shop’ outside their home that ‘English’ people could come to and purchase things from them that they made. The elder showed us around his property, and invited us to sit with him in his tiny ‘shop’ after being inside his house for hours. Everyone in the Amish community has a purpose. The young girls were labeling canned preserves. The young boys were rounding up the horses. Another child was playing with a huge monkey wrench on the front porch. More children were picking up fallen pecans from the pecan tree. Some were chasing the chickens. The sound of horse hooves on pavement was very mellowing. Different people from the community were stopping by while we were there to talk to the elder. They spoke in German to each other, but the elder would translate for us to let us know what was going on. It was as if time did not exist there. It seemed that these people do not toil about, worrying about what to do next, or being impatient & bored. They just lived.

Every religion has its negatives, but I believe the Amish are desperately holding on to their deeply steeped tradition in this world that would love to make them convert. I worry for their way of life. I worry and pray for the innocence of their children to stay pure. I cannot even describe the beauty that I saw in their sweet souls. I worry because the elders will be gone one day.

I’m not sure they understand the impact of allowing the youth to go into society to shop. Images pervert a person even if the person does not immediately realise it. There is a reason God warns us to not do certain things. The reason is because those things tarnish us. Those things dim our light. I recently watched a documentary about Amish culture. All of the people who left the Amish did so after seeing their appearance in a photograph for the first time (Amish do not use mirrors or photography, these photographs were taken by the person making the documentary). It was like a well placed snare of Satan. It was heartbreaking to watch. I have heard people talk about the Amish – usually they say derogatory things. American society would think it is abusive to have children working the way the Amish do. The children help with the farms, and help their family. They do not run about with electronic devices, but rather play in the dirt and trees. I think it is abusive that American society let children look upon pornographic imagery that is all over TV and media. The front covers of magazines at every checkout isle. Modesty, humility, and the Word of God seem to be a foundation that the Amish society is centered around.

I know that no religious practice is perfect, but I truly believe the Amish are desperately clinging to a way of life that keeps them humble & God-centered. The two beautiful people we met are our penpals now. It is amazing to feel the love and warmth of their culture through their letters. I pray that modern times do not force these people to change their way of life. I pray that the generations to come after the elders are gone will continue to respect and adhere to the ordinances of the Bible. If a reformation of their culture is to happen, I pray that it will be to better their strict rules and way of life to be even more centered on God, and less centered on trivial things. I believe that through the ages it is important for religions to check-up on themselves. Time has a way of solidifying ideologies that may not be God’s will, but more man’s tradition. We must all be sure to conituously grow in the Lord, and prevent ourselves from doing anything that will hinder that growth.

Christianity vs Religion (‘Church’)

Christian‘ & ‘Religion (Church)’ are not the same thing. The two words can be used together, or they can be used separately because they are independent. A Church is seen as a building on this earth that people congregate in, and most would say these people are ‘Christians’. It may be so. It may not be so. One can be a Christian without attending Church thus being tied to the religion of a church (Methodist, Baptist, Catholic, Mormon, Church of God… And many, countless more). Church is truly held inside oneself. It is a time that should always be, and never end. For if we fall asleep in Spirit we will surely be tempted.

It is perplexing  (and at the same time it is clear) why Churches do not realise their demise. They are worldly, and they are trying to get as many people crammed into that material building as possible. They are causing nonbelievers to despise religion which is a word they associate to meaning God. Being religious does not equate to God. Church is not about football, cell phones, concert-like music, prom, worldly affairs… Anything taking place in a congregation other than the edifying of God is of the devil, of this world. Any church that practices true fellowsip would be a most rare find. Something I have yet to attend, but long to be brought to.

The spirit can never be quenched. Being in the Spirit does not just last for 2 hours of worldly Church time. The spirit is an armor that Christians always wear, least we be deceived by the world.

 The night is almost gone, and the day is near. Therefore let us lay aside the deeds of darkness and put on the armor of light. Let us behave properly as in the day, not in carousing and drunkenness, not in sexual promiscuity and sensuality, not in strife and jealousy. But put on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make no provision for the flesh in regard to its lusts. – Romans 13:12-14

Therefore, take up the full armor of God, so that you will be able to resist in the evil day, and having done everything, to stand firm. Stand firm therefore, having girded your loins with truth , and having  put on the breastplate of righteousness , and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace ; in addition to all, taking up the shield of faith with which you will be able to extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.  And take the helmet of salvation , and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.   With all prayer and petition pray at all times in the Spirit, and with this in view, be on the alert with all perseverance and petition for all the ssaint – Ephesians 6:13-18

This is not meant to be a bashing of the worldly Church. This is meant help others truly discern the Church. It is to awaken sleeping spirits to get on Jesus’ path, to crucify their flesh and walk always in the spirit.

For the orphans out there, the ones without faith, here is a challenge:

The proof – evidence- of God exists within the believer and is felt by other believers. Stop searching for signs as proof because there will not be any. If Churches have not brought you to salvation, question the Church, not the belief of God. Turn off the TV, cell phone, ipad, and anything that prevents you from sitting in silence. The world desires to keep your attention off of the truth, off of God. The world wants you to believe in falsities and worry constantly about foolish things. We are a creation filled with emotion. Not just a handful of feelings, but a multitude with varying degrees. The world works to suppress feeling. Empathy. Focus all of your attention on the desire to connect with God. Forget what anyone has taught you, and teach yourself with the help of prayer. Pray for understanding on the things you do not yet understand. Read the bible, His word. Then obey everything that we are commanded to do. Strive to obey every moment of everyday. God will move you. 

I was a nonbeliever not too long ago, 1 1/2 years. I picked up the bible to find a quote from the movie Pulp Fiction. I read in Ezekiel that there would be no one to stand in the gap. I was moved to tears, and lead to salvation. The Bible is the most amazing book ever compiled. God will give insight to those that seek Him. I pray all the sheep will return hastily. It is time to leave this world of madness & corruption.

Start a Revolution, Rebel!

This generation is being led by the ‘hippie-era’ generation. Think about the implications. That era was ‘free love’ and drug experimentations turned into obsession. That era is my parent’s generation, now in their 50’s and 60’s. The older men and women we have to look up to. That generation begot ‘devil’s music’ and critized bras and respectable ladies & gentlemen. That era protested and rebelled.

Fast forward to today. America is the number one distributor of pornography. Media glamorizes sex and drugs and violence. A person cannot innocently browse the internet without being bombarded by filth. Today’s generation and the youth under us are being programmed for sex, and all intellectual thought flees once that is the basis of their learning. This is SICK. The world is SICK. And what is worse, people who hold this moral opinion that these immoral things should not be are silenced. For some very strange reason, no one wants to hear the truth! Media would  NEVER allow such innocent views to be shared. Why are’t the women on The View, The Talk, The Chew, The Real… talking about what really is going on, instead of promoting filthy propaganda even more? It’s not just young women presenting themselves in such ‘look at my body’ ways. The older women are on the same bandwagon. They are letting their pubescent children teach them how to act.

People, my heart is in a bind. I feel physically ill at the thought of what the future could possibly hold, for the present is already so disgusting. We, as moral individuals, have got to stop passing the buck. We cannot rely on anyone else to stand up for what is right when we do not ourselves voice it. I mean, we have to really work to get it out there. The devil is not  asleep. We should not be either. This is a fight!

It is beyond time. We must start locally. Call the department stores in your neighborhood. Tell them you do not agree with these Sports Illustrated magazines and Cosmopolitan magazines being at the end-caps of every checkout at eye level with our children. Tell your friends & churches to do the same thing. Jesus was a rebel, you know? If they don’t rid them completely, at least section them off so that one would have to search the store for said material instead of my innocent eyes and the eyes of children having to be raped by its smut! Please, I am begging. We must stop talking and start doing.

It seems that every other immoral agenda and news clip easily hits mainstream. It is time for real values to step back in. The underground world of filth has reared up, and is now above ground and everywhere! Long gone are the days of ladies and gentlemen. Long gone is the generation of pocketbook women with gloves & hats. The women that no one would dare act immoral in front of. The women that if someone else acted immoral in front of it would even make you feel ashamed. We are in the days that if a woman has an honest, pure opinion about the sad state of affairs around her she is considered a prude, or worse, a witch. I have seriously been asked if I was one for having my own opinion and intelligence. An opinion that no one else has or is too afraid to speak out loud.

Girls, clothe yourselves! Have decency! Stop using your body like it is some kind of super power over others. It’s not. It is a falsity. You are going to be wrinkled and old one day without an ounce of intelligence in you & no hard body to be desired. Don’t wither away. Uplift yourself, your spirit, and your mind by doing something that no one else is. Rebel against the norm. Cover up your stuff. Walk with confidence that only you get to know the secrets of your body. Be an example to other women and girls.

IRS & Jesus… what?

Then render unto Caesar the things that are Caesar’s; and to God the things that are God’s. Matthew 22:21

I owed $1600 on my $11,000 income.

I am self-employed. I enjoy working for myself so that I may set my hours, make things that bring people joy, and spend time with my family. I am able to freely speak of my concerns & beliefs in my workplace. I get to travel & I try to spread the light to others when I do. I do not seek to become rich, hence my self-employment, for it allows me to get by, fulfilling all of my needs without government assistance. As stated before, my abode is a small home that I love dearly, and I do not desire to keep up with the rat race that is taking place in society.

I can easily dismiss the distractions that are in the world; however, when the government is on you it is hard to overlook. Last year, I paid an accountant to do my taxes (the government should pay these people for the service of collecting their money). I owed $1600 on my $11,000 income. Let that sink in for a minute. This was indeed a very hard pill for me to swallow. I fretted needlessly. I worried continuously until I was finally able to pay-off my tax (debt) to the government. Of course, they charged interest along the way. The same circumstances have come around again this year. Making such a small income doesn’t really allow me wiggle-room to ‘put back’ the government’s portion of my income for the year to follow. I don’t even know if I will be alive the next year. This is not Big Brother’s concern; however, Healthcare is and now I am forced to have to pay monthly for it, but I digress. I find it ludacris that I am taxed in such a way on such a small amount of income. This, for me, is a stumbling block that I am trying earnestly to overcome. According to the government, I am living in what is known as ‘poverty’. The fact that my tax money goes to things that I do not support, instead of possibly helping other ‘impoverished’ peoples makes me a little upset. I’m in no way asking to be exempt from taxes, I’m just pleading “Why so much?” and “Why can’t I choose its destination?”.

If I were working for a company, and made this amount of income I wouldn’t even have to file taxes. If 22 different people paid me $500, I wouldn’t be taxed on it, I would have earned income credit. But, since I choose to be self-employed I must pay taxes on my meager earnings. Seems the government is confused. Seems the government is hungry for people who want to live outside of the ‘norm’ to have to pay exceedingly.

But again, I digress. I see Jesus’ words at the top of this blog, and I must remember to do just that: Render to the government what is the governments. No matter what happens, God will be with me so long as I have faith, even if it is a small as a mustard seed. God continues to take care of my family & me, and I will give every dollar I ever make if that is what is demanded of me. For worldly things are not my desire, but heavenly things are.

Yet again, Jesus is here to give me guidance that no man nor government can ever be wise enough to say or do on their own. Properly titled in my Bible ‘The cure for anxiety”.

And who by being worried can add a single hour to his life?  Matthew 25:27

So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 25:34

I will continue my lifestyle of living in the Lord. I will not be overcome, but I have, and will continue to overcome the world by the grace of God. I pray that others do not let the small things that are in this lifetime distract and prevent them from living a godly life. Pray hard. Pray unceasingly. And know that by the blood of Christ we are bought, money cannot buy anything that our Father has for us.

Satan & the suffering servant

That old bugger satan really likes to mess around with people all throughout their lives. However, we cannot fully blame satan because God allows satan to do these things. See, the thing is, God wants us to prove our worth to Him. God created Lucifer, and Lucifer wanted to exalt himself above God. There is some evil that God just cannot imagine. So, God cast His angel, Lucifer, who is satan on the earth, out of heaven and into the world. Satan answers to God. Satan can go before God’s throne. God allows satan to mess around on the earth so that us meeklings will glorify God even more, and prove our undying devotion to Him.

Now there was a day when the sons of God came to present themselves before the Lord, and satan also came among them. The Lord said to satan, “From where do you come?”  Then satan answered the Lord and said “from roaming about on the earth and walking around on it.” The Lord said to satan “Have you considered my servant Job? For there is no one like him on the earth, a blameless and upright man fearing God and turning from evil.” 

Then satan answered the Lord “Does Job fear God for nothing? Have You not made a hedge about him and his house and all that he has, on every side?…. But put forth Your hand now and touch all be has and surely he will curse You to Your face.”

Then the Lord said to satan “Behold, all that he has is in your power, only do not put forth your hand on him.” Job 1:6-12

So, satan departs from God’s throne, and sets off to do horrible things to Job and his family. He can do anything but kill Job. All the while, Job never curses God. He questions God. He wants to die. But in the end, his love for God grows stronger and more intimate.

God’s children are to one day be angels in His army. Why would our Father want a weak army? We are to be suffering servants on earth. God does not want another Lucifer in His army of angels in Heaven. We are tried on earth and refined by fire to prove we are willing to always do what is good by God. If found unworthy of God’s court of angels then to the devil we will go. Surely then man will know that He is the Lord thy God.

It will come about in all the land,” Declares the Lord, “That two parts in it will be cut off and perish; but the third will be left in it. And I will bring the third part through the fire, Refine them as silver is refined, and test them as gold is tested. They will call on My name, and I will answer them; I will say, ‘They are My people,’ and they will say, ‘the Lord is my God.'”Zechariah 13:8-9

So be on the alert for that serpent of old. Even through the trials in life, no matter how trying they may be. God is with you and will see you through as long as faith is there. If not, battling with the devil is so much worse. And there is no good ending without God. God does love us. Immensely. Uncorruptibly. He is our Father, watching us rise & undeniably fall. I cannot even imagine His pain. He endures it. He has a plan. We just have to believe with all our being.

Some people may believe that it is cruel for God to let satan try us. They may think ‘surely no loving God would purposely hurt their child.’. Since the very beginning, God’s creation of man has denied Him. God started creating laws for the humans to obey, yet of course they didn’t. They chose to be with the devil in the world and deny Him being their creator, their Father. Throughout the old testement God destroys, and gives His creation another chance. Then another chance. Saying along the way that surely they will recognize by these things that He is God. But still, mankind fails. Always falling for the wiles of satan. Don’t fall for it. God is not an easy way out. He does not just want to be around during hard times. He wants devotion in the best times, too. Pray hard. Pray unceasingly.

God does not want us to be robots. He gives us free will so that we may freely choose to love Him, or deny Him. He gives us free will so that we can be individuals. Of course, humans would freely love God if He would just prove Himself. But what kind of love would that really be? Shallow and selfish. Lacking substance from not being tested by faith. What reward would God have if we love Him because He makes us love Him? He wants us to strive to be perfect as He is perfect. Although no one can ever reach the glory of God, we are to aim to be perfect by obeying Him. By walking in the Spirit. By walking like Jesus.

O Dry Bones!

MY mind is reeling. The world is spinning. Oh my God, so much evil is taking place.

How long, oh Lord, will I call for help, and you will not hear? I cry out to you, “Violence!” yet you do not save. Why do You make me see iniquity, and cause me to look on wickedness?” Habakkuk 1:2-3

I desperately want the wicked to turn from their ways. So badly do I desire for the world to be at peace. What a deep, vastly deep, feeling it is to know uncorruptible love from the Lord, yet not get anyone to understand or feel it! To think that such love is also a curse, for I must see the hopeless not even try to obtain the hope! Love is not something that can be proven, for everyone experiences emotion differently. God cannot be proven, for God is a personal relationship within. Each person must seek Him themselves. Why are humans so absorbed in themselves that they cannot fathom a higher power? For if one does not know of the higher power in God, they cannot possibly know that it is His adversary that keeps them from searching! What a perplexity!

Evil abounds in this world, no doubt. But a great evil has risen to displace our Christ. I am not against anyone, only against the world. God has told us all things that have taken place, and that are currently taking place. Be on guard. Pray for a hedge to be about you.

Look among the nations! Observe! Be astonished! Wonder! Because I am doing something in your days – You would not believe if you were told. For behold, I am raising up the Chaldeans, that fierce & impetuous people who march throughout the earth to seize dwelling places which are not theirs. They are dreaded and feared; Their justice & authority originate with themselves. Habakkuk 1:5-7

All of them come for violence. Their horde of faces moves forward. They collect captives like sand. They mock at kings and rulers are a laughing matter to them. They laugh at every fortress and heap up rubble to capture it. They will sweep through like the wind and pass on. But they will be held guilty, they whose strength is their god.” Habakkuk 1:9-11

How, Oh God, can people see when they are blind? They are blinded by everything that is in this world. Pour your Spirit upon your people, Lord. Let them grasp for you and find firm hold! How badly I want all souls to be saved, but how earnestly my heart sings “Come, Lord Jesus, come!” It has started. It has all started, so it will have to eventually end.

Record the vision and inscribe it on tablets, that the one who reads it may run. For the vision is yet for the appointed time; It hastens toward the goal and will not fail. Though it tarries, wait for it; for it will certainly come, it will not delay. Habakkuk 2:2-3

Do you understand?